This last year has been an interesting one for me. Being a single again has had its blessings and its trials, and these days the most important prayer I send up every night is the one that involves contentment. Don’t get me wrong- I am happier and more social and interactive than ever. I have my family and I have the farm and I have the Church and I have my writing. I could never ask for more.
Seriously. I couldn’t ask for more.
And I don’t know why I should pray for anything extra other than God’s Will for my life. If I cannot be content with what I have right now, today, than I think I have a problem with contentment, not with today, wouldn’t you agree?
My only question to myself - Is it well with my soul? To question your contentedness is to question your heart- not your surroundings. Only when you have contented clarity of mind can you truly evaluate your situation in life.
People ask me – don’t you pray for a husband? Honestly- no. I don’t. Not at the moment, anyways. I know that not every woman is meant to be married. Singlehood is a state of being, not always a stepping stone. Sometimes there is more, sometimes there isn’t. So why should I spend my days pining away for a blessing not given to everyone? Sure, I hope it comes my way one day, but I try not to make it my goal in life to catch some unsuspecting man. Sure, being a wife is profound blessing and a divine calling, but so is being a daughter, in my opinion.
1 Corinthians 7:34 – “There is a difference also between a wife and a virgin. The unmarried woman careth for the things of the Lord that she may be holy both in body and in spirit: but she that is married careth for the things of the world, how she may please her husband.”
Now I don’t mean to say all this to sound brash or uncaring, nor do I mean to cheapen the amazing witness of marriage, a type of our relationship to Christ. All I am trying to say is that I am learning to be happy where I am. With who I am and what I am doing. To go about my business and let the Lord do His work in His timing.
I believe He has a Will, a plan for my life. Making myself unhappy by skipping forward to the next chapter will only ruin my today. Today is all I have right now. Tomorrow comes inevitably, but I for one am willing to wait contentedly.
“Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say, it is well, it is well with my soul.”